Cinco de MEAT-O

So how lame is it that I bought a bag of "steak" strips (very expensive ones might I add) to make fake carne asada for my self yesterday and still ended up eating the delicious cow flesh with everyone else :(

I got cranky and tired and didn't want to take the time to make a special dinner just for me. I realized at about 7:30pm that I had been doing nothing but cooking and cleaning all day long. As nice as it was to chill with my friends the night ended badly and since I was so wound up I couldn't sleep until almost midnight. So I got approx. 4 hours of sleep. It's one more reason that I'm seeing that seeking Jesus for strength and spiritual growth is going to help me more than anything else. I need to pray for my bad attitude, my moodiness. I have found in the past that when I focus on God, the diet and exercise comes much easier. ... seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you... right? Oh how we forget the simplest things.

This reminds me, I wanted to recommend a book to everyone. It's by Joyce Meyer and it's called Look Great, Feel Great. Rachel was the first to tell me about it. She scared me with some info about diabetes and then I got curious. It's a devotional but also just a great read. It helped me gain perspective about my health and not just my size. And how health isn't just about your body, it's actually about your soul first. But I think the most eye opening was the (very long) chapter about stress and how much it wrecks our bodies. I guess I just never thought about how bad it really is. I think I'm going to pick it up again and go through it as a devotional this time, week to week. It kind of says to go through each chapter in 2 week intervals, like read a chapter and then apply it for a couple weeks before moving on. If you guys are interested in doing it too let me know! You can grab it on amazon for like a buck + shipping. I got free shipping because I signed up for some premium program that had a free trial and then canceled. It's neat you can get free 2 day shipping for anything on amazon for a month. Anyway let me know.

Although my day has started off pretty crappy I think it's going to look up, here's hoping.